Last night I cried till 4:30 in the morning, I'm sure you saw me.
You heard my whisper, you heard my voice.
You know my wish, you see my soul.
When I was doing that you've never told me I was wrong, did you?
You've just look at me silent and cruel.
You knew that everything will destroy, but didn't say anything.
Now I'm regretful, but it's too late
It's too late because I can't say I was wrong.
It's too late because you don't see my pain.
God…
You knew that…
Why you didn't stop me???
Why you were so brute to me and to my heart?
It was said everything you want is my destiny, your discretion.
BUT MY GOD CRYING AND PAIN IS YOUR DESCRETION?????
CAN'T YOU SEE MY TEARS EVERY NIGHT???
I know I deserve it…but where is your mercy???
I was cold, I broke heart, but now I'm burning in your fire of anger.
There's nothing more left of me.
My eyes are empty, my heart is full of shame, and my mouth is full of excuse.
Release me, hug me, kiss me and let me cry on your shoulders.
I love you, like me.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
I miss you
When you were in my life
I thought we would always be together
Nothing else would be a matter
My life would be better
I was cold like a piece of ice
But always you were nice
Days passed quickly
You were lovely
I was behaving coldly
You told me you cried
During that cold night
But I said I don't mind
I was blind
One day you broke
You left me alone
But you said you love me though
Now I need you more
Please please
Come home
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
He was gone…so accidental…so calm. He closed his eyes forever.
I've never been his fan and for me his death was not a big shock.
It was a shock of course but not big one.
But everything has changed since last night when I saw his funeral. When I thought Michael Jackson, I never thought “dead,” I thought, “weird".
My mind was locked when I saw his coffin. I feel pity for him.
I was thinking how that energetic and happy man with those active movements could be so lifeless and slept in that golden coffin without smallest movement even in one cellule.
I'm thinking when my turn is, he was famous and millions of people care about him.
What about me??? I will die and just less than 50 people would be sad about….
I'm not afraid of dying, but it's true and it's right.
Be ware and live for life…
Good bye Michael Jackson and be happy caz you would see him, God.
God take care of him….
Saturday, June 6, 2009
.jpg)
Light on…
He decided to leave her. That was all.
They had many small problems, better to say, many small disagreements. But they loved each other for years.
None of them have ever thought about leaving, but he did finally, after a short discussion the night before.
She woke up with some sounds; it was him, packing his suitcase.
She couldn't believe it, but that was true, he was leaving her with all those beautiful memories.
He looked at her, his eyes were empty, and she sat on their bed staring at him.
"Good morning" he said with a motionless voice. "What are you doing?" she asked.
He stood up, looked at her with the last signs of love in his eyes which were disappearing. Of course she saw it, but she wasn't sure.
He turned on the old music player which she has bought for his birthday.
The sound filled up their small but lovely room:
" Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn't be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there's no point in grieving
Doesn't matter anyway
Words can never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I'm leaving"
"Bye" he said. She couldn't hear any more, he put his suitcase and walked away.
The last thing she heard was the sound of door closed like it never would be opened again.
After several minutes she went to the door maybe she could see him one more time, but the only thing she saw was his footsteps on white and pure snow.
"Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
something I rely on to get home
one I can feel at night, a naked light
a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
even in the daylight, shine on
and when it's late at night
you can look inside
you won't feel so alone."
The last part of music.
He was gone.
He decided to leave her. That was all.
They had many small problems, better to say, many small disagreements. But they loved each other for years.
None of them have ever thought about leaving, but he did finally, after a short discussion the night before.
She woke up with some sounds; it was him, packing his suitcase.
She couldn't believe it, but that was true, he was leaving her with all those beautiful memories.
He looked at her, his eyes were empty, and she sat on their bed staring at him.
"Good morning" he said with a motionless voice. "What are you doing?" she asked.
He stood up, looked at her with the last signs of love in his eyes which were disappearing. Of course she saw it, but she wasn't sure.
He turned on the old music player which she has bought for his birthday.
The sound filled up their small but lovely room:
" Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn't be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there's no point in grieving
Doesn't matter anyway
Words can never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I'm leaving"
"Bye" he said. She couldn't hear any more, he put his suitcase and walked away.
The last thing she heard was the sound of door closed like it never would be opened again.
After several minutes she went to the door maybe she could see him one more time, but the only thing she saw was his footsteps on white and pure snow.
"Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
something I rely on to get home
one I can feel at night, a naked light
a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
even in the daylight, shine on
and when it's late at night
you can look inside
you won't feel so alone."
The last part of music.
He was gone.
Monday, May 25, 2009
The truth...
The truth…
He separated a spirit from him and gave him beauty. He purred him with all the blessing of gracefulness and kindness. He gave him a cup of happiness and told "Don't drink from this cup unless you forget the past and the future and forget that happiness is naught but the moment."
And then he gave him a cup of sorrow and told "Whenever you drink from this cup you'll understand the meaning of the fleeting joy of life, but sorrow is enduring."
Then he bestowed upon him a love that would surround all one's belongings and a sweetness which would vanish, with his first flattery.
He gave him a fire from the furnace of anger and sharp sands from the shore of selfishness. He gave him a blind power that drives him into madness and placed life in him which was the sign of death.
At the end he cried and laughed, he felt in love with him and…
And He combined them all and fashioned a Man…
He separated a spirit from him and gave him beauty. He purred him with all the blessing of gracefulness and kindness. He gave him a cup of happiness and told "Don't drink from this cup unless you forget the past and the future and forget that happiness is naught but the moment."
And then he gave him a cup of sorrow and told "Whenever you drink from this cup you'll understand the meaning of the fleeting joy of life, but sorrow is enduring."
Then he bestowed upon him a love that would surround all one's belongings and a sweetness which would vanish, with his first flattery.
He gave him a fire from the furnace of anger and sharp sands from the shore of selfishness. He gave him a blind power that drives him into madness and placed life in him which was the sign of death.
At the end he cried and laughed, he felt in love with him and…
And He combined them all and fashioned a Man…
Thursday, May 21, 2009
The fifth child...
They found each other different from others, they got married.
Their only wish was a big family with 8 children in a huge house far from London.
Harriet and David Lovatt lived together happily with four children.
Every Christmas and summer vacations whole families gathered together for spending a part of
their wonderful times that God gave them.
But good times passed so soon; Harriet became pregnant, completely different.
The baby was a little strong man in her womb; she had pain every day and night.
He came to this cruel world after 8 months.
Ben was a big problem for everyone in the family.
He was aggressive, cruel, and strong with an unshaped body which scared everyone and tried to kill his brother when he was 3.
He was drove away from others, except his mother.
After a few years that big and crowded house became empty and soundless.
But Ben was still a little troll or goblin…
Harriet tried hard and harder to make him ok, but he was with his unusual friends.
He forgot his mother simply and went from that house.
The last thing was:
Harriet was watching TV when she saw Ben among offenders and a camera was taking movie and Ben was just looking around to find someone like himself.
They found each other different from others, they got married.
Their only wish was a big family with 8 children in a huge house far from London.
Harriet and David Lovatt lived together happily with four children.
Every Christmas and summer vacations whole families gathered together for spending a part of
their wonderful times that God gave them.
But good times passed so soon; Harriet became pregnant, completely different.
The baby was a little strong man in her womb; she had pain every day and night.
He came to this cruel world after 8 months.
Ben was a big problem for everyone in the family.
He was aggressive, cruel, and strong with an unshaped body which scared everyone and tried to kill his brother when he was 3.
He was drove away from others, except his mother.
After a few years that big and crowded house became empty and soundless.
But Ben was still a little troll or goblin…
Harriet tried hard and harder to make him ok, but he was with his unusual friends.
He forgot his mother simply and went from that house.
The last thing was:
Harriet was watching TV when she saw Ben among offenders and a camera was taking movie and Ben was just looking around to find someone like himself.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Continue...
He would never see sparrows again, he knew that.
He opened his eyes and looked again, she was standing closer.
He took a deep breath and tried to remember his wonderful days with his wife near the beach, where they first met each other.
His wife died years ago.
Something sparked in his mind, opened his eyes and looked at the calendar which seemed to be slept on the wall.
Today is his birthday, his wedding anniversary, and he becomes 80.
Suddenly he remembered something…he remembered his wish when he was 20.
He wished to die at the age of 80.
Today…
He felt her near his bed…with her white clothes which waved in the air.
She came closer and closer, till she reached to his bed.
She slept beside him and took him in her arms.
He felt light, painless, empty and he heard her sound whispering in his ears with a delicate sound
"It's time to go dear, as you wished".
Then everything happened so fast that he could not remember, he flew to the new world and he experienced a new feeling.
He felt death…
He opened his eyes and looked again, she was standing closer.
He took a deep breath and tried to remember his wonderful days with his wife near the beach, where they first met each other.
His wife died years ago.
Something sparked in his mind, opened his eyes and looked at the calendar which seemed to be slept on the wall.
Today is his birthday, his wedding anniversary, and he becomes 80.
Suddenly he remembered something…he remembered his wish when he was 20.
He wished to die at the age of 80.
Today…
He felt her near his bed…with her white clothes which waved in the air.
She came closer and closer, till she reached to his bed.
She slept beside him and took him in her arms.
He felt light, painless, empty and he heard her sound whispering in his ears with a delicate sound
"It's time to go dear, as you wished".
Then everything happened so fast that he could not remember, he flew to the new world and he experienced a new feeling.
He felt death…
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)